Howdy! My name is Lisa and I was born in 1970 in Hazlet, New Jersey. I am a Capricorn, if that means anything to anyone. I grew up in New Jersey, went to college in Pennsylvania, spent 5 years of my life living in North Carolina, moved to West Texas for a year and a half and have now moved back to North Carolina. From all of these moves, I have learned one thing...I HATE packing up all of my belongings in boxes! *grin*

I only came to accept and embrace the fact that I am gay in my thirties. I know, it's a little late but hey, someone once said "better late than never". *grin* I spent the bulk of my life not exactly denying who I was, but more like ignoring it. I knew that there was a curiosity there and, looking back now I think I was a complete idiot not to have picked up on some things, but I simply lived my life as I thought I was expected to and never gave much thought to those things that should have clued me in. So anyway, I have finally gotten to where I belong and am happier now than I think I ever have been with myself.

When I decided to explore the whole lesbian thing, I started at the internet. I joined Planet Out and started perusing the personal ads. I found out something new about myself right away. I had always kind of figured that I was attracted to femmes because, prior to my explorations, I had always found myself looking at more feminine women and thinking "wow, she's hot". Then, I noticed that all of the pictured personal ads I was saving to respond to were of totally butch women. Made me stop and go "Hmmmmm". Now that I was actually taking steps toward exploring this side of myself, I found out that my attractions were far from what I thought they would be if I had ever thought seriously of doing this. It was a revelation, to say the least. My wonderful fiance, Kim, looks like the stereotypical butch and I have found that I embrace the butch/femme dynamic completely. My favorite saying is that a butch is the sexiest thing on earth and I have the sexiest of the sexy. *grin*

Ok, if you are still reading then I haven't bored you to death yet so I will ramble on. I identify as a femme, although there are certain more "butch-like" qualities about me. I feel that being femme, like being butch, is a state of mind as well as a state of being. Even when I have on my old jeans with my hair tucked up in a ballcap, I am still femme. I love to fish and dont whine for someone else to bait my hook (and I use maggots for bait!) but that doesn't make me any less who I am. I am an extremely cuddly person, liking to snuggle up next to my honey whenever I get the chance. I am also fiercely protective of those I love.

I have quite a few hobbies besides fishing. I like to camp, preferably when the weather gets a little cool outside. I love reading, mostly mysteries and especially murder mysteries. I spend a lot of time on my computer, working on my website, surfing the internet and pixel painting. I enjoy spending time with my cats, dogs and ferrets. I am pretty well read on dogs and can usually give you the name and charecteristics of most any breed, including rare ones. I even watch dog shows from start to finish on television. *grin* Speaking of TV, I am addicted to a few shows, including "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" (sadly gone now, but alive forever on DVD!), "How I Met Your Mother", "The Closer", "Desperate Housewives", "The Big Bang Theory", "Supernatural" and "Dollhouse". Besides of all these things, I also enjoy playing board games (like Trivial Pursuit and Scrabble), shooting pool and bowling (not that I am any good at this last one. LOL).

I was married once, to a wonderful man who remains a dear friend of mine. I married him when I was 25 and left him when I was 30. It was an amicable divorce. Nobodys fault really, we just weren't "in love" with one another anymore and we wanted different things from life. I will probably always regret that we didn't have children because, since leaving him, I have had to have a hysterectomy (my bilogical clock still ticks, but I cant do a thing about it). On the up side, Kim has two grown sons so perhaps I will have grandchildren to love someday. *smile* Being brought up a strict Catholic, I feared my mother would take my divorce hard, but she actually handled it rather well.

2006 brought about a fair amount of changes in my life. On April 18th, I had gastric bypass surgery and I've been busy getting my life and my health back on track ever since. If you are interested, you can read my gastric bypass surgery journal (and see the amazing photos of my shrinking self) HERE. In September, Kim and I realized one of our dreams and purchased a home out in the country. We are loving the solitude and the experience of small town living (a first for me, a return to her roots for her). I have also "come out" at work...didnt have much choice, since we now live in the same county I work in and we run into my co-workers EVERYWHERE!

Well, that is me in a nutshell. *grin* I am just an ordinary woman who has finally found herself and her place in life. I guess 30 years isn't THAT long of a time to take in figuring it out. I am just glad that I finally made it.